I've been a super blog slacker lately. Scratch that - a life slacker in general. Man, I'm really, REALLY getting used to having a second set of hands around lately. Makes it a whole lot easier to give in to my ultimate daily goals: sit as much as possible.
To be fair, the sitting seems to be as much a necessity as it is a luxury right now. Also to be fair: I'm growing a person. Standing for too long leaves me with swollen, throbbing feet, which are guaranteed to not only keep me up that night, but ache all day the next day, as well as a myriad of fun Braxton-Hicks contractions and pulsing varicose veins. Man, is pregnancy HOT. This one is definitely rougher on my body than the last - I think having a 30lb toddler to lift and lug around is aiding in that. I've started limiting picking her up, which is sad for me. When I start to get sad about that, my brain starts to go rapidly to a more depressed state, in which I cannot control my thoughts of "oh my god, what have we DONE? how will we have a second baby?!" and feeling sorry for sweet little Ellie, whose life is about to be radically upheaved with no warning to her, and what if it makes her feel neglected or left behind? I try to quickly remind myself that more babies = more love and a sibling relationship is probably the best thing ever (for most sets of siblings), but... it's hard when my thoughts force me to confront these kind of fears. Normal, I know, but still unpleasant.
I'll be 29 weeks this weekend, which means around 11 left to go. We've talked to our midwife about the likelihood of a super quick delivery, which does slightly scare me, but mostly is a comfort. When it comes to labor & delivery, fast is nice. Who wants to be in labor for 66 hours? ;) (dig at my bff, who endured this torture of prodromal labor, followed by eventual progression, fetal distress, and emergency section. Yeah, I'd avoid that if I can, for sure!). I broke down and purchased my first "major" baby purchase - an Ergo Baby Carrier - yesterday, but justified it because the thing was on sale at Target (defective box, FTW!) for 35% off. YES. Still pricey, but I hear they're the best, and I plan to try to avoid buying a double stroller for a while and instead wear this baby as much as possible.
Really, not much going on these days, hence the radio silence over here. It's been a good month though, and I can't believe it's already March.
Off to eat some birthday cake. Nope, nobody's birthday, but.... what can I say? I'm gestating.